Accept the journey

A few months ago I felt as if I was ready to become rich! I was pumped I was visualizing my future with lots of money and fancy cars. I would be trading from the beach in a few months as many of the trading gurus want you believe. How's that wifi at the beach working out for you Mr.? I had killed it on the simulator making about 500$+ per day and most of those wins were in the first 20 minutes of the day!  The feeling of exhilaration was there, the visualization of success was there.....and then.....I went LIVE. I will discuss the various challenges I had going live in subsequent posts but one thing I will say here is that for the few months I went live it was pretty much a disaster. Not because of the amount of money i lost , but due to the frustration i felt of not yet achieving what i wanted to achieve. I thought I was ready, actually I was sure I was ready! I had no idea emotions would cause me to freeze in my live trading. I was smart and quick in the sim trading, so what was going on here??? What happened? I came to the realization that if trading is hard for so most people, then why on earth would it be easy for me. What was so special about me that would set me apart from others who have tried this before. My expectations had buried me. I can sit here and blame the marketers for this, and say that they don't put forth a realistic view of what i should have expected as I went live, but i won't because we each are responsible for what we create in life. If I keep blaming everyone else for my failures I will always be the victim and that is not I place i want to be at. As I mentioned before, it was my expectations that really set the tone for my frustrations. The more you expect to achieve something, the more disappointed you will be when you don't reach your goal in minimal time. So what have I decided to do? I am not lowering my expectations because to me that would defeat the purpose. I still want to achieve all I set out to the second I started showering myself with trading knowledge. The big difference is that now I am not focused on the outcome, I am zeroing in on the process, or some would call it the journey. What do I have to do to achieve the outcome I so desire. What have other traders done  before me to become successful. Once you accept that it is going to be a journey of ups and downs and many of them! You will feel peace in whatever happens along the way. You will maintain your focus with all the swings in your emotional state as well as your trading account. As long as you see progress in your journey nothing will stop you or myself for that matter. Do not be too hard on yourself, many before you have failed multiple times before succeeding. You cannot know one without the other , it is simply impossible as life is all about contrasts. I have accepted that i will not be rich over night, however i know deep down inside that it will be a challenging journey up till the point that i finally come out victorious.